Kafo nominated me for the Honest Blogger Award. I accept. Thank you. Forgive me though if i break all the rules. Approximately 2 hours ago, my world stop.
Ayo's SMS
i am scared of sending this text cos i dnt know how u feel abt me anymore, n i dnt enjoy looking like a fool. but 4 wat its worth, i miss d way we used 2 b, i miss d moments we shared, i miss being a part of ur life, i miss sharing my tots wit u, i miss talking about us. this distance btw us hurts so bad cos i love u so much. but i am tired of fighting 4 someone who wont fight for me. i need you novia but you must need me too.
Novia's SMS
ayo ayo ayo. i wish i understand things myself.and wish i could explain it to you. cant we at least be friends, u know talk?
i called her back immediately. we had a strong argument. and the call ended with the words that stopped my world.
Ayo: You are supposed to be my girlfriend and you are asking me to be just friends? what am i supposed to think?
Novia: am supposed to be your girlfriend? ok fine, i dont want to be anymore. bye.
the phone clicked.a few seconds later a text message came in from Novia.
ayo u know u can be quite annoying? i didnt want dis to happen, dats y i wanted us to be better friends.
there has been 2 missed calls from her best friend and 2 missed calls from her. but i am not picking any calls for a while.
you all have shared a front seat view into my life. i thank you. and i nominate everyone who has been on my cheer team. i have got this far because of you all. but now, i must lie low for as long as it takes. i ask you to pray for me. because i am toying with the thought of never falling in love again or using and abusing every woman from now on.
Monday, October 6
I am Honest
chronicled by disgodkidd at Monday, October 06, 2008
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I am dumbfounded...What exactly is going on? How did it get to this stage? Which one of you was hasty? Just calm down....calm down....I think you need to step out of 'Ayo' and be Disgodkidd for a few days, see it from the outside as a stranger viewing a theatre performance. I think you should never consider either of the options you think you have now, becos God is love and love does not use and abuse...
Just calm down...we need to talk...
dear ayo,
i have known u 2b many tins but dis..wat on earth are u talkin abt..cos of one relatnshp? No way..ur berra dan dat..
How can u suddenly hate woman or plan to abuse woman? No way!
u wont even chat..haba
I know ur hurting rite now...relationshps can be like dat..frm one extreme to the other..but u no wat..u have the ability to live above dat. dat love...d love of God constraints u...
lastly..dis phase will pass away..remember i was dying once..but look at me ..m fine..
relax...
ayo relax..
Its not the end of d world..
u'll do just fine..
i want u to release ur hurts...
breathe and let it go. Because of one bad experience, no matter how bad it might be don't ruin the possibilities of your future by harboring hatred and mistreating whoever comes your way; be in in a relationship or otherwise.
Don't consider the options you have mentioned, God is love and everything about love is good. sometimes we as man, simply get it wrong...
Breathe in.. release and simply let it go..
Much love
..."I think you need to step out of 'Ayo' and be Disgodkidd for a few days..."
You've said you need to lie low, then do so. But make sure that while you're lying low and reflecting, that you think of what God's will is for your life...because in the midst of the storms of life, God's will will make you the best person you could ever imagine to be.
I'll always be a cheerleader...telling you that God is still with you, every step of the way...whether you can see Him or NOT.
Ayo this is me. i have been a quiet observer of this spot, but as this has a lot to do with me, i guess i have to say something. You did a wonderful job portraying how innocent and loving You were, while i just up and changed.I guess u listened to nothing i said in our strong argument which is rather unfortunate. You really got me upset,i guess i said what i didn't really mean, but i now see its for the best.
Take it easy Ayo...may you have God's comfort and wisdom this period...
One person's act is not enough to make a general conclusion. There are very loving and great ladies out there.
you see nina, this is why my fones are all switched off. you had to go and say another thing, didn't you? have told you we shouldn't talk when we are upset. you said the words that stabbed my heart, and now you are turning the blade.
i listened nina. and this is what i heard: i heard you ask me if i know what love really is, i heard you ask me if i really care about you, i heard you tell me that we became all lovey too fast and now you want us to be friends and talk, i heard you say everything was fine when i knew otherwise for so long until that morning...do u know how much torture that has been for my heart? i heard you say you don't want to be my girlfriend anymore.
you see nina, i dont claim to be innocent and all. i know i got you angry and i piss you off every now and then. but nina, you broke my heart. see i told you about me, i dont hold back. i didn't fall in love with you nina. i chose to love you. and i chose to make it work. now suddenly, after 3 months, you doubt my love. you wonder if i truly care about you. well nina, the only guarantee i can give you is that i loved you 100%. that's something that you should have learned to trust.
and nina, through all our disagreements, quitting was never an option for me. but i guess i was on my own there.
Relationship palava!!!
both of you should talk and listen to yourselves.
Ayo pls listen to nina.
Nina pls listen to ayo.
Do you know what?
i'm tired off begging you. pity party and all wont help you..why should we be begging you sef..tell me.?
i don't know what crime she has committed??
You two lost it some where. you two should be willing to forgive and forge ahead.
Ayo, I agree with all Jaycee said, as you take time off, reflect on what God's will for your life is. God's purpose for you is more important than anything. I as well have doubted the authenticity of love in the past BUT God is love and I can't doubt Him. I can't say because love has brought pain, love does not exist. We all love you and Novia. Like Remi said, breathe in and be calm!
Love can never be everything that it is, until it learns to be Patient.
D, even in our most painful moments, there's good at work for us. Yeah, it sucks, and we don't believe it all the time, but when did Truth need our belief -- to be Truth?
Peace and Blessings to your hearts as God reveals every lesson, in time...:)!
Your love for her is very honourable...her love for you is very questionable. But she has to let you know something.... Does she want to work things out or is she out completely?
Guess its ur fight as you said...
chill you are not married
mercy what is up
love sucks
and it hurts but you are not married
so Daydah this is not marriage unless u know the person and you are not sharing it with the rest of blogville
but
like Jaycee said
take a couple of days
breathe in
breathe out
cry
pray
maybe scream
pray for some more
listen to mellow tunes
cry
listen to happy tunes
and then one day
u will smile
don't rush it
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