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this post is untitled because i cannot tag what i am feeling right now.

1. they say the ones you love the most are the ones you can hurt the most. i don't disagree. and why won't women just tell you whats on their mind? men are not trained in reading minds after all. and is it wrong to compliment and pamper the one you are in a relationship with? does it ever get too much? or does a woman just need to have space some time? if she doesn't do what she usually does, does it mean that its just a busy moment, or does it signal a love-check? hmmm.....love is complex and hard work...i dont disagree either.

2. i plead guilty. i may be shallow. i have known this girl for a little over a year now. we have talked man nights on phone, and she was great to talk to and share things with. before i met novia, i used to dump on her. after i met novia, she celebrated with me. i had never met her in person. we just talked on MTN's free midnight call for over a year. we developed a friendship. then i traveled to port harcourt and met her for the first time. i couldn't turn and walk away - we had bonded already. and after all it was only for a few hours.

yesterday she had to come to lagos for her nysc. i am the only one she knows so she had to stay in my place until her re-deployment letter was picked up today. It turns out that the letter wont be ready till next week thursday.

i am ashamed to say this, but i cant wait for her to be gone. i dread the next few days. why? bcos i like pretty girls, and she doesn't cut it for me. and there's just something about her presence that doesn't excite me(what's that strange odour suddenly? it it her cream or soap or something?)

she really just needs a favor for a few days, and she has been a great talk mate to me for a lot of months when i was single and lonely. but she's just not pretty enough for me....and shes too "just-not-the-kind-of-girl-that-would-make-a-man-take-a-second-glance"...

i know. its shameful that i feel this way. am just not attracted. in fact i am almost repulsed. i plead guilty.

PS: Novia knows this girl is staying with me. She consented considering the situation.

so there, av spilled it....judge me, or not.