DIlemma of A Nice Guy

I am sitting where eyes can see me. I am sitting with two beautiful gorgeous women on either side of me. The kind of women the other guys want to go out with me. We are talking and laughing animatedly. I can sense the wrath directed at me. These are the women that all the men would like to go out with. And they think i am going out with one of these women.

Unfortunately.

The animated conversation that i am having with these women is about the guys they like and the guys that are tripping for them.

So am there, the envy of all the other guys, when in reality, am just the friend that these women feel so comfortable with that they can discuss their love interests.

Oblivious of the fact that am crazy about one of them.

The dilemma of a nice guy...

Diary of A Wiser Black Brotha!

I will love you, Woman.
But if you do not recognize it -
I will let you go;
I deserve to smile too.

I Recommend...

I am slowing getting my bounce back spiritually. I found great connection, comfort and answers in this book, The Gates of Zion, by Pastor Chris Oyakhilome. You can get a copy from our online store

I recommend it to anyone who hits a spiritual rock bottom.

Testimony: Yesterday, I put to work the verse that says be anxious for nothing...make your request known to God...Today, the answer showed up.

New Life Lesson: God's silence isn't necessarily is absence. Sometimes His silence is deliberate to serves His purpose. God was silent on Jesus from age 12 to age 30. God was silent on Jacob when Joseph was "dead".

I Miss Blogging

My dear dear friend asked me why i blog? I think i blog because am a writer. I don't talk much but i have a lot of passion inside of me, so blogging is a way to express myself. Plus i know that i have a story to tell that someone can learn from. So i blog for myself. and i blog for someone.

I havent been blogging frequently because i am fighting the fight of my life. And truth be said, there is a lot of pain. I am in terrible spiritual low, and theres no point in writing words that are devoid of grace. Even if i could write, which i really can't because like the say, he who is really pained has no words.

Anyway, i seem to be slowly rising from my rock bottom spiritual experience. I discovered one of my pastors books, The Gates of Zion, which pretty much epitomized my current spiritual state. You might want to buy a copy from our online store. www.christembassyonlinestore.org

Anyways, i miss blogging. I have been reading but i hope to start writing again pretty soon.

Shalom.

A Painful Truth

I cannot say exactly what i want to say.
Because of certain people who have become aware of this blog.

I no longer feel butterflies.

Jude 24.

UPDATE:
It's not just about Love.
I no longer feel butterflies.
Because.
I can no longer marry our Message with our Methods.
Unless.
The enemy has gotten to me.

A Beautiful Woman

Dear Mama,

You have sacrificed so much for me. And now when you should reap your harvest, you still sacrifice even more.

My guilt is bearable because you are still supportive. You know i love you. But you taught me to love God first and best.

I am doing this for us mom. And i pray like Joseph i will nourish you in my promised land.

God bless you. Thank you Mrs Lucy Edinger. I love you more than i can show.

Happy Mothers Day.

Dental Update

It's day 3 after my dental surgery. There has been no pain, but it seems to be getting slight inconvenient. a sore seems to have developed in my inner upper lip, the the cheek of the surgical site seems to be sore too. i cant eat well, and my limited diet complicates matters. my antibiotics seem to be making me weak and leaving me dehydrated. Custard, eba and soup, and pap are the foods i have been struggling to eat. I tired moi moi once. i am so hungry and want to eat but the effort of eating turns me off after a few spoons. yet i must eat good so my body can revitalize.

i am really not in any pain, just discomfort and inconvenience. and there seems to be a lot of spit forming in my mouth. i keep praying i don't have to sneeze. i have to go back next wednessday to take off the stitch. Until then am surfing for any info on how i can hasten my recovery.

i want to eatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.